I’ve been a bit of an emotional mess lately because of a little known condition, most recognized in first world countries, specifically during the winter months. It presents with generalized anxiety, restlessness, screaming, crying, and laughing until a tiny bit of pee comes out. It’s entertainment overload.
The last month or two of winter culminates with an almost obsessive like desire to break boredom’s kneecaps. And so, I have binge watched, binge read and binge eaten my way through the past month of winter. I went through the entire 5 seasons of Six Feet under in a matter of days. Shows like this aren’t meant to be watched over the course of a few days. They’re meant to be savoured, pondered and looked forward to over a period of years. And doing anything other than that will most assuredly result in mental health issues. I became addicted to watching it. 5 episodes in a row wasn’t enough. I need 6, 7 … MORE. Back to back to back on the couch until the wee hours of the morning when the only other people awake were shift workers and arsonists.
In one instalment of binge watching I could rip through every emotion known to mankind at such a heightened level that I was pretty much manic. I stopped even enjoying the show. It was an addiction plain and simple. The first few episodes were fantastic but then it just became a matter of HAVING to watch them just to feel normal. It’s exactly like smoking crack. I can say that will all the confidence of someone who has binge watched many shows featuring characters who smoked crack.
So to come down from my Six Feet Under emotional roller coaster I’d go to bed and read the best books I could find. The GoldFinch, Tell The Wolves I’m Home, The Invention of Wings. All SUCH good books (because that’s what you need in the boring, boring last months of winter) they were emotional sponges sucking every last bit of feeling out of me and throwing it around the room like a tornado.
Read, watch, read, watch, read, watch.
I’m a mess.
So this weekend I’m detoxing. I refuse to be entertained or overly excited in any way. I shall be a dullard.
If you find you’ve gone through the same thing this past little while, I suggest you do the same.
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See you all on Monday, have a good weekend!
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